Finding My Purpose: Day 1
Finding my purpose has been something I have struggled with for a while now. Recently I decided that I want to make a change in my life on a larger scale. Consistency has been a struggle for me so I wanted to see what happened if I showed up consistently for myself for 12 weeks. Of course I couldn’t just show up in one area I decided that I needed to change everything in my life I have been struggling with at once. I could write a whole book on things I would like to do so maybe that will be a later post. Regardless, onto what you came for, how I am finding my purpose in life.
Once you read through I would love if you would share in the SW+C Discord your answer to this question:
Have found your passion in life? if so what is it? if not, do you want to or what steps are you taking to find it?
The Challenge
When I came across Cathrin Manning’s vlog’s on YouTube I felt a connection and since her videos have always seemed to find me in times that I need it the most. Yesterday I was watching her video, The ONE Strategy That Helped Me Create My Dream Life // VLOG, and I started a deep dive into Cathrin, her career, and what led her to her dream life. In my deep dive I found her 3 Days To Purpose Challenge and immediately signed up and decided to share my journey through this to show that I am not perfect, show you EXACTLY how I am making changes to find happiness, and being real about the struggles that come along with it. So here goes nothing….
Raw and Unfiltered
I love how this challenge starts with simply sitting with your thoughts and manifesting what your dream life can and will be. After the video you get to the workbook which I love it is so simple and straight to the point. The first eleven questions are to access your self from your happiness to if you are treating your body and mind right.
In the spirit of being 100% transparent here are my responses from questions 12-20:
Are there elements of my life where I’ve been lacking? If yes or maybe, write down what areas you think you’ve been lacking:
I think I am lacking in most aspects of my life…consistency being the main tie. I feel that I lack the drive to make the change even though others tell me that I am a hard worker or persistent or strong. I struggle to maintain what I would call “normalcy” keeping my house clean,, sticking to a schedule, working out regularly, eating well/regularly. I think I struggle with things others find easy and I hate it. I don’t know how to not ‘lack’ in these areas. I want to do better, I want to feel better, I WANT to change my life I just think it is impossible some days…most days… and it seems like I never see results.
What led you here? And why did you sign up for this free mini-course?
What led me here is my mission of the day to make enough money to make ends meet and finally be able to do what I love and be happy. I signed up for the free mini-course because it sounds so far like exactly what I need…someone to help me figure out what/where I am supposed to be. I also signed up because I have always felt a “connection” to Cathrin since I found her at a time when I didn’t have anyone who I felt understood everything I was going though at the time.
Why do you want to change your life?
I want to change my life so that I am healthier and feel better in my own skin (workout-diet-mental health). I want to change my life so that I can live the life of my dreams, support myself + my future family and never worry about missing an opportunity.
What are you unhappy about in your life right now? List some examples or the exact things that don’t sit right with you. Why are you unhappy about it/them?
weight → gained a lot - clothes not fitting - not feeling like my body is mine
mental health → always down - not happy
financial status → not able to afford bills or the basics
job → losing too much time - not fulfilled - finances^ - hate how I feel about it
where I live → not mine - limited on what I can or can’t do
not having the ability to go out/pursue hobbies → not able to have time for things I enjoy - help mental health - make new friends
not getting outside enough → sunshine - happiness - soul fulfillment
not having the ability to travel → happiness - peaceful - hobby - friends - no TRUE independence
If you could do anything or be anyone, what would you do & who would you be?
I would live on my ranch with a personal art studio where I can create art that inspires me and share my journey/knowledge with other people who are interested in nature, ranching, or just loving life in general.
What do you want your life to look like in 1 year?
Regularly making art, FT with my own business, travelling regularly (able to visit leanna and calla), new friends, new truck, plans to get a mustang
What do you want your life to look like in 10 years?
I want to be living on my own property with a small herd of cattle and horses, building my dream home, maybe starting a family, be well traveled, helping others, enjoying life, working for myself doing something I love, able to employ at least one other and have a great relationship with them! I would love to have released a cookbook, go on outdoor trips with groups of friends, maybe even start a podcast or YouTube channel where I can share my art process, outdoor adventures, and help encourage people to follow their dreams!
Is there someone or something that seems to be holding you back from the life you want to live?
The only thing I truly think is holding me back is finances…if I could afford/make ends meet and was able to buy internet again I think with the right plan of action and backing I could do anything I set my mind too. Time is also a factor but the reality is I have so much wasted time. Whether that be at a job that doesn’t make ends meet or wasted time on dumb games/shows or doom scrolling.
What are you most afraid of happening if you decide to be truly, unapologetically yourself by following your passion & purpose in life?
I am afraid of no one understanding me or enjoying what I am sharing. I am afraid I would put in all this time and effort and so much of myself for it to fail.
My Thoughts + Conclusion
This challenge has been a very pleasant surprise but I am really not shocked with how I feel about it. I have always wanted people I follow to have certain characteristics’ I see in myself or have traits I am trying to embody.
I strongly encourage you to join the challenge if you have liked any of the questions asked. The videos and Cathrin help so much and it has so far been exactly what I needed. You can find the link to the challenge here! I would also HIGHLY recommend you check out her YouTube channel if you love people who are going after their dreams, are down to earth, and are transparent.
Remember if any of this peaked your interest, or you are interested in joining me on the journey please join the SW+C Discord Server and let me know what you think! I will post the next and final two updates here, on the Discord, and on my Instagram.
See you tomorrow for the next update,
XOXO Allie